book or not.. :l

ok now i'm in the middle.. thinking and thinking over about it everyday.. so it was like this..

i've received the news that the predeparture prog would be on 18 august but then the result only came on 11 august. Yes i know that the result should come first, so that only those who pass can go to the pre-departure, buttt 18 august??? it's near raya and the ticket flight must be expensive man.. huh..

if I can smile like this seeing my ticket..

so i was thinking and thinking and thinking.. should I book it now?? coz it's still not too late if i want to book now.. the cost was about RM400 so it still in my budget..but what if.. i didn't pass suddenly?? i already book but i cannot go to the pre-departure?? in other words no more czech??? what if that happens?? then how?? burned lah..!! and its even more frustrating rite..
so book after the result is it??? sure2 lah ticket on that time was sooooooo sooooooooo expensive..

Ah help me.. here is another nightmare.. the departure would be on 5th Sept?? i was like... what??? hei it's still raya and who knows maybe this is the last raya in Malaysia so of course i want to celebrate and enjoy myself fully. and the worst is, the whole family of mine are on Tawau on that time, so maybe.. no one will send me off at the airport??? hua i fell like want to cry right now.. this is not the part that i imagine before..

it gonna be the saddest raya and the saddest departure ever..hmmm

Actually i already made up my mind before that don't think about czech before result come out.. but since this shock news came, i think that i need to think again over my decision..

maybe it's the time for me to perform solat sunat isthikarah.. so that Allah will guide me.. the correct path.. aminnnnn..