exam got story

assalamualaikum pembuka post baru.. hehe...

dah lama x update blog nie, rasa x wujud ada gak. sebab busy yang tak terkata, study study study exam exam exam.. huh.. winter sem agak memenatkan..
lepas dissection week yg menyeronokkan, kamiorg semua struggle for the post dissection. aku dgn beraninya take the post the week after it, which is on wednesday. bajet dah ready lah nie dan nak lepaskan awal2 so that boleh fokus ngan chem after that.. konon..

FAIL!

sebab ape?? salah tunjuk medial rotation of arm.

tp aku still ok lg. boleh terima kegagalan pertama nie. takpe, senior ckp takpe.. gagal 1st attempt tue biasalah.

2nd attempt is the next day : thursday

FAIL AGAIN!

dush dush dush!! memang terasa sangat kegagalan tue. at first aku x nangis kot, but then bila aku duk sorg2 kat lebri, mengalir air mata... :"( seriously rasa diri sendiri bodoh sgt. rasa mcm x boleh nak adapt je nie, x boleh nak masuk je medik nie.. susahnya Ya Allah..

tp kesedihan tue sekejap je lah.. lepas tue ok balik..

ok so then nak try dalam next week. but at the same time nak ambik latin jugak by monday. nak lepaskan latin nie awal2x. honestly, aku minat sgt latin nie, coz juz hafal2 mcm tue je xde perasaan.. bg aku lahhhhh...

i was trying very hard to answer them and then....

FAIL LAGI!! MAK AAIII!!!

ha yg nie xyah ckp lah.. memang dah nangis sgt2.. apsal aku asyik fail.. apsal nie??? something wrong somewhere. nasib baik lah ada usrah yg memberi semangat.. dan juga kawan2x.. usrah tue lah tempat utk aku sedar, kebegantungan itu pada Allah.

then, nak try post rabu tue, tp Radka x bagi coz dia nak kiteorg betul2 ready, so kena retake on jan.. haiiiiii.. penat je aku studyyyyy.. hampa... tp takpelah... mgkn rezeki on jan kot...

ok fine. tinggalkan semua!!! fokus dkat chem.. ok korg2 semua.. let me tell how scary chem is.

medical chemistry nie, x semua university bg subjek nie tau. yg aku tau skrg hanya university aku dan rusia je.. yg lain aku xtau.. ok nie memang KILLER SUBJEK utk first year. you only have three attempt and if you fail at third, TERMINATE! TERMINATE OK!! impian nak jadi doktor boleh hancur dgn chem nie. senior pun ckp, 'korg lepaskan lah chem nie dulu, lepas chem lepaslah first year korg.' ha mcm tue lah perumpamaannya.. and usually first attempt x lepas tau. study dia pun bukan senang, byk sgt benda kena hafal dan STRUCTURE PUN KENA HAFAL TAU TAK!! paracetamol, benzocaine, lipoic acid, uracil, thymine segala.. approx dlm 30+ something structure kena hafal tau. masa tue makan chem, minum chem, tidur chem.. huh.. sampaikan awal pagi gi fac study, balik 10.47 malam. sbb aku susah nak study kat bilik. aku hampir2 dah nak withdraw exam, nak postpone lg, sbb x ready lg. tp senior suruh go through je manatau ade rezeki.. huh ok!!!

dan bila kuar result........

ALHAMDULILLAH! ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

THANK U YA ALLAH!

seriosly memang x sangka gile boleh lepas. hebatnya kuasa mu Ya Allah. kau berikan aku kegagalan demi kegagalan, rupanya kau nak beri hadiah yg lebih hebat!! lepas first attempt!

bile lepas chem, rase lepas satu bebanan yg cukup berat di bahu nie.. seriously..

then barulah aku proceed ke czech (on the same day the result came out), alhamdulillah lepas gak.

next retake latin, alhamdulillah lepas gak.

finally post dissection.. yg nie agak phobia ada gak sebab dah gagal 2x kot. tp mmg dah all out dah nie.. ntah nie dah kali ke berape dah aku baca buku anat tue..

ALHAMDULILLAH!!! 

baik sungguh mood Radka.. hehe..

officially i'm done with the exam for winter!

bile muhasabah balik, oooo mcm nie rupanya pathway aku utk winter nie. apsal aku sedih sgt bila gagal.. hayyya...

kepada kwn2x lain yg x setel exam lg, aku tau korg tension.. sgt2x.. tp korg, trust me!! keep struggling, nangis takpe, tp biar air mata tue menaikkan semangat balik. mungkin jalan cerita exam korg lg menarik.. hanya Allah tau.. keep praying, and klu rase nak luah kat kwn, boleh je... kiteorg ade je utk korg insyaAllah.. senior pun pesan kan, SUPPORT tue paling penting. korg jgn down sgt sampai affect study. insyaAllah Allah akan tolong org yg berusaha.. :)

so that all the story for my winter exam. teringat status someone kat fb.

"i'm never looked at the past and never at the future, coz i'm living in present. in the past people say i'm genius, but today, i'm struggling very hard for the unknown future"

some sort like that lah. k nak gi prague lepas nie.. salam!