sebuah perlawanan yg epic

malam tadi,

berlangsungnya perlawanan akhir badminton olimpik 2012 antara Lin Dan dan Lee Chong Wei.

Malaysia x dapat apa2x pingat lagi setakat ini.. dan aku agak jugaklah mengikuti perkembangan pemain Malaysia di London nie. sbb dah xda kerja nak buat!!!!

ok. dgn semangat yg begitu membara, membara-bara menegjar pingat emas, Chong wei dikatakan telah bersedia sepenuhnya dari segi mental dan fizikal, 

dulu dia terpaksa menarik diri dalam perlawanan final sbb buku lali sakit, tapi kali ini dia sangat bersedia.. 

set pertama.. chong wei menang!!! dia nampak begitu tenang..

set kedua.. chong wei kalah..

set ketiga, sangat-sangat sengit apabila mereka terikat hampir kesemua poin.. aku yg tak bermain nie pun sgtlah emotional, apakan lagi pemain itu sendiri..

akhirnya, telah tertulis.. Datuk Lee Chong Wei tewas 21-19..

beliau terus terduduk sambil meletakkan hujung raketnya di dahi.. sedih.. aku sendiri dapat merasakan kesedihan itu.. kerana ini merupakan olimpik terakhir buatnya..

u know what that stupid mind of myself after the game?? i hope that Chong Wei can log in facebook and saw by himself what Malaysian comment about him.. mostly, it's a well done and heart touched status..

it's not about winning. it's about fighting. thank u for all your efforts. we feel you.. :')

aku ingatkan aku dah ok

bila aku turun ke bandar,
perasaan sakit di dada tue semakin kurang.
x sesakit yg dulu..

aku ingatkan aku dah ok.

bila aku memikirkan semula kesibukan tahun pertama ku di universiti,
aku x byk mengingat mu.
aku busy.

aku ingatkan aku dah lupa.

bila aku pergi ke sekolah balik,
jumpa kawan lama,
aku rasa seronok, excited,
tiada perasaan seperti dulu..

aku ingatkan aku dah sembuh.

tapi, mungkin..
akulah masalahnya.
masa lapang itu menjahamkan.. benar..
aku x byk memikirkan dirimu,
tapi hampir setiap hari kau muncul dalam mimpi aku tanpa aku rela kan..
tapi kdg2x aku rasa bersyukur,
jumpa dalam mimpi pun dah cukup :')

pada mulanya, aku benar2x yakin mengakui i'm getting better.
dan.. aku merasakan sdh bersedia to let it go..
mungkin ini ujian di waktu lapang.
takpalah.. tahun demi tahun, masa akan berlalu,,
i will get better.
i will.
i promise.

exam summer

hari ini. bgn lmbt. x buat apa2x.. ckp dgn mak, aku pening kepala lah sbb x buat papa hari nie.. haha.. then kakak aku menyampuk, byk kerja tue bulan, pi lah kau lap2x meja, almari semua.. kbye....!! aku nak rehat sepuasnya2x....

ok nak cerita apa eh.. cerita exam lah..!

mula2x sekali ambik exam biophysics kan.. sbb dah lepas semua kredit test, alhamdulillah.... so kena ambik oral praktikal je.. around like 28 question to cover lah.. and you know what, i make last minute decision to take the exam 1 week earlier than it should be.. haha.. poyo je.. prepared for like 3 days lah utk praktikal tue.. x susah sgt pun sebenarnya as long as you understatnd the experiment, knows how to conduct, then you'll be fine. but the thing is it's my oral exam so first experiences always give a butterfly in your stomach. alhamdulillah.. dpt soalan yg boleh dijawab.. lepas jugak lah.. alhamdulillah..

then, then,, czech exam.. i'm not really performed that well in translation as it was really hard script, even my teacher admit it, but the speaking part, i'm kind of did well.. well perhaps because that it's just a simple question from her like "do you have a big family?", "are you look forward to go back?". fully in czech language. superb!

the very heavy and tough subject follows, anatomy.. huh.. this subject really fun, that's the only subject that you can tell your family about that you had touch the cadaver, you had cut them, oh yeah.. haha!! but the information there, is really really too much and you had to memorized every single thing of them. even the very last word of the last paragraph on a page you had to consider them much. when it's the exam, i was very nervous as i know i'm not ready, it's not possible to remember everything there, impossible.!! 10 minutes before entering the anatomy department, it feels like i didn''t study any for the last two weeks. i was blur and nervous.
but alhamdulillah i got quite an easy question and i passed with kutal. anatomy... huh!

the very last exam, biology. i spent only like 4 days for this, plus that my eager to go back increase tremendeously.. ohhh it's a very stressful moment. i love bio, but the thing is, i think that 4 days is so not enough for you to understand them much. bio need an understanding, but as a whole, as it links to each other, each chapter... but then once again, i got question that you can breath relieve when you read them.. alhamdulillah.. Allah ease my way this time. and qilah also passed, even though she got a quite hard question.

exam is over. first year officially DONE !!

summer holiday..

alhamdulillah....!!!

beta dah selamat sampai dekat TAWAU!!! wuhuuuu!
eh jap,, sejak bila plak guna beta nie?? alah.. aku kan anak raja.. hahaha.. ini serius wei..

ok. 12 hours dlm flight, transit kat dubai, dubai seriously panas wei...unexpected sgt panas dia.. tp view dubai bila malam sgtlah cantik2x, tp bila siang, speechless,, betulkah nie yg aku tgk semalam...??? k dah dah cerita dubai.. oh tak cerita plak terlambat bgn kat hotel dubai tue.. naseb baek... huh...

sampai malaysia, huh... excited sgt2x.... weh weh dorg ckp malaysia weh... poyo je aku dkat klia tue excited dgr org cakap malaysia.. haha.. best tau tak pengalaman balik malaysia for the first time.. excitednya teramat2 lah sgt... perumpamaan i'm willing to do anything for these feeling.. awesome!!!!

ok x cerita pun pasal exam.. kan kan... last post pun pasal frust dgn dissection week.. ok lah nanti post lain beta cerita pasal exam ok..!

skrg beta dah kat rumah..!! seminggu stay kat kl, jalan hampir setiap hari tau,, shopping!! huhu... malaysia seriously heaven dgn food tau tak..! murah plak tue...!!! huh.. selera meningkat2 sejak balik sini.. hehe..

alhamdulillah baru sak tadi selesai baca doa selamat... doa selamat puasa, selamat abg tam dah keja, selamat aku dah balik.. alhamdulillah rezeki Allah melimpah sgt2x...

perasaan bila balik rumah, huh.... unexplainable..! sgt2x awesome... seronok!!!! yg paling2x indah tau tak ??? Allah berikan kesempatan utk berjumpa dgn 2 org yg paling aku syg.. MAK AYAH...

ohhh 2 months, please.... please pass slowly... as you can.. :(

23/05

a lot of things happened.
i didn't told you about i passed my biophysics,
i didn't told you about i had dissection week,
i didn't told u about i settled down my credit test,
i didn't told you about i met the opthalmist today

but what i wanna tell you, NOW..

i was down to the earth. i lose the spirit, i lose the willingness, i lose that mood.
everyone seems like knowing everything, but i.... i was left far behind..
i know nothing about what they know.. they're smart, me??? hmmmm..

and i've been keeping them from monday, i'm working full time in class till that i was very, very tired and had no time for self study, i was dizzy, and about to faint, but i'll just keep them.

and it's all burst today. the class was so noisy, i was asking my friend to teach me personally, bcause i know nothing, but she was busy studying other region, well i did explain my region to you, why not u??

i was really, really, REALLY down that time. i don't know why i got angry easily this lately. plus that stupid nonsense gossip, i don't think i can hold it anymore.

suddenly, my tear gland function abnormally. it wants to secrete tears..  so i rushed to to the toilet, and release everything there. maybe not everything.

now, no one to be told, no one ask, no one knows, no one concern, no one...
i guess that books always be the loyal accomopanied for me..

diari minggu ini

assalamualaikum...

diari minggu ini..
rabu yg lepas, aku ada skull test. well, it's not that hard to study skull(recognizing the bone and vessel, nerves that passes through the foramen), it's just that we had too many other things to revise, so didin't study much for it.. really :(  so, me and grace had decided to go to the museum almost everyday, spending for like 1-2 hours study skull. enough! because the best way to memorize all that almost 50+ termonological name for skull, is to have that skull right in front of you. read, touch and memorize where and how it looks.
belum habis pun ayat dr kutal bila dia mention ttg skull "SO WHO WANTS...." aku terus angkat tangan. "who wants to take the test today?" i think that almost everyone wants to settle down the skull that day, because after this a lot and a lot more test are coming. so dr kutal continued his routine just like another wednesday, revised the morning lecture, and take us to the dissection room to see the specimen. but my mind, was thinking about skull. saying all the name of the bone, but only me that heard them. right after that, i was waiting so nervously outside the class, while Pedro and Ayman were tested inside, it feels like my my heart beats faster than it. well that's normal, whenever i'll have test, i'll always be like that.

i'm going inside, but it's Grace turns first. "Gud luck Grace !" i was sitting behind her. and that dr kutal decide that he will give question to three of us, while asking Grace, we will have time to revise. well that's better!! for me lah.. so Grace got that middle cranial fossa, i got that orbital question, Syah got nasal bone.

oooohhh seriously i never studied orbital bone specifically before. ok fine aku akan kelentong je nie..!! Grace past. alhamdulillah.. now it's my turn. " ok this is obital part of skull bone. this is the base, and this is the apex. supraorbital margin is formed by frontal bone, infraorbital margin by maxilla bone, lateral margin by zygomatic bone, and medial margin by... l a c r i m a l bone??" dr kutal geleng kepala sambil tunjuk2 tulang tue. "ohh no no frontal process of maxilla bone!" huh.. nasib baik.

next question "what's the supraobital fossa medially and laterally on orbital?" aku pun.. "ooowwhh, supraorbital notch and frontal notch!!!" "NOOOOOO..! i means this one." ah sudah aku dah cuak dah.. hmmmmm.. hmmmmm. hmmmmmm.. finally gave up "what is it??(sambil buat muka curious.. hehe). "its the blablabla and lacrimal fossa...." oooooooooooooooooo.....

then everything going smoothly. he ask me about the roof, floor, apex, optic canal, seperior orbital margin, inferior orbital margin. and the result is "ok we're done. i'm going to give you maybe um.. B or C... ok i give you B" huh.. can't believe that.. alhamdulillah..

but the main point that i want to tell here, when i stepped in to the dissection room, where all my friends are waiting there, everyone was just like STARING to me.." mcm mana2?" huh,, i smiled. "Alhamdulillah aku lepas" actually. the sad part is, i can't control myself that time. i was so excited, and i feel like wants to tell them the whole story!!!!!!!!! which is supposedly,, supposedly, supposedly, i should not show that kind of reaction. because they haven't take it, so i'm afraid that they'll get hurt by it.. STUPID ME!!!! it's just that, this is the first oral test that i passed. during entrance exam, i was cried after it because it's 50:50 to enter that uni, while all my friends got that confirmation. and during that post dissect, i failed 2x, and only this time, for the first time, i passed my oral test.  sorry people for being selfish.. i'm really sorry.. :(
but after that, i smiled when i saw Grace, because she passed too, and the best thing is, we study together, ad we passed together. that's the sweet thing :')

and on thursday morning, i just got knew that, " dear su, i'm sorry. you failed the test-dr radka". ahhh.. memang dah agak dah. takpa2.. boleh repeat..:)

and for today, i had that histo test. ahhh agak tough gak soalan kali nie. and i got that 69% something. huh.. apa2pun alhamdulillah dulu.. bersyukur dgn apa yg ada.. then, we had first aid, which was really fun for this time, because we demonstrated all that first aid practical that we know. very informative. but then, ada test plak!!!!!!!!!! ok fine rasanya semua org tak bersedia kot. memang tak tau pun ada test. seriously!! ok just layan je.. 15 question, and boleh salah 3 je. FYNE!!!!!!! ok buat je.. buat je...

sementara menunggu result, rumour2 mengatakan ramai failed. ah sudah. tp mmg x study pun. then when it is my turn, my paper was marked right in front of me, ah x sanggup aku nak tgk.. aku rasa aku failed nie. adui.. "su, ko pass!!!" HAH???? HAH???? wahhhhh .... smiled.:) tp ramai gak yg x lepas.. tak tau lah nak ckp mcm mana. xtau nak tunjuk reaksi mcm mana. seriously aku failed bila sampai bab2 nie.

kesimpulan cerita ini : alhamdulillah ya Allah. for everything that u gave me this week, for all the result, for the strength. i had been through this week!! i made it !! and another two hectic weeks before the dissection week.. fighting!!!

summer dah datang

assalamualaikum...

saya ingin mendeclarekan yg suhu hari nie 27 degree.. makkk aiii..

punyalah panas.. aku tak taulah apsal panas dia rasa lebih panas berbanding malaysia..

mgkn sebab dah terbiasa exposed dgn cuaca sejuk kot sebelum nie.. hehehe..

jumaat yg lalu, x silap aku lah.. aku baru keluar dr bangunan reception sbb nak ambik kunci laundry, tiba2 sorg mamat nie main roler blade, agak laju gak lah.. then bila ku tgk atas... x pakai baju????? seluar pendek je kot. aku terus menundukkan pendangan sbb agak terkesima sedikit. tp aku mcm x percaya dgn apa yg aku lihat, so aku toleh belakang lg sekali utk konfomkan. yes it's true.. huh..

hari nie plak, aku ada satu kelas je which is at 3 dan kelas komputer je. so aku pun gerak pukul 2 dr bilik. punyalah panas. seriously mcm kat Malaysia. x tipu nie. masuk library aku terus duduk sambil mengipas2 baju "huh panas2".. and the masa balik pulak, tertengok sorg uncle nie, dia bw barang, berseluar panjang, dah ok dah tue, n then bila tgk atas langsung x pakai baju.. astaghfirullahulazim..

agak2 lah gak.. kiteorg kat Malaysia summer sepanjang tahun tp xdalah sampai buka baju segala bagai.

apa2 pun, panas memang panas. dan kerisauan mula terbit di hati kami semua. "mcm mana kita nak mengekalkan keputihan balik Malaysia nie wei?" perbualan hangat aku dgn kawan2 sini... haha.. nampak gayanya weekend nie aku kena beli kipas lah.. bilik pun dah mula panas tau tak..

MUM

mum,
if i have the power...
i will make sure that u will never had that pain,
u will never had that sadness,
u will never had that worry,
u will never had that tears.

i will make sure that u will have pleasant live for the rest of your age.

dear mum, imissyou:'(

no test this week :)

only that this week i don't have any test. but next next week, i will have for like 1-2 test per week plus that i have to prepare for the final.. but still i have to self study this week and struggling...

doakan saya ya!! ;)

hati :(

HATI.....

kenapa kau sepi??? apsal ko senyap ha??? 

kenapa ko berubah ah???

apa yg buat ko mcm nie??

apa yg kau cari???

pernah tak korg rasa... korg xnak ckp dgn sapa2.. korg xda mood.. korg rasa nak bersendiri..

well, that's what i feel right now.. 

rasa nak ISOLATE diri dalam gua mcm Rasulullah buat dulu..

tp x mampu...

dgn timbunan-timbunan test dan study2 buku yg begitu banyak,

baca lain, hafal lain.... hmmmm

maybe that's one the cause.. tp bukan lah the major point for this heart problem.

aku tau aku boleh hadapinya.. Allah dah bg masuk medic, insyaAllah jd doktor yg baik satu hari nanti :)

hati hati hati!!!! heart heart heart!!!

apa yg kau cari???

kau ada masalah irregular rhythm, bradycardia, trachycardia tue semua ka??

ada valve yg tersumbat ka???

what is your problem??

jesenik..

yesterday.. this eleven girl had their picnic in jesenik!!!!

ok. seriously guys.. tempat nie sgt awesome. i was quite stress with study, books and incoming test, but along the way to this place, which is in the train, you will see the most enchanted view ever. MasyaAlah..

see the unique house up there

 view from the train

 remembering my chilhood

 masyaAllah...

 village house

 rombongan berjalan mencari bas

 air kat sini jernih...:)

 kak arina-comellll!!! haha

 i'm macho :p

 cantik ka??

 notice the weirdness in this pic

 dah ambik spot dahhhh..

ha nie lah batu yg selalu kuar kat internet tue.. 

but unfortunately, battery exhausted  :( only a few pic that i can capture, but i really2 want u to see it's beauty.. 

btw, it really helps relieve my stress :)

thanx all!!!!

spring picnic

assalamualaikum.

last week we have this short planning of 'SPRING PICNIC' with all the first year students of malaysian in olomouc, my batch yeah!! Syarin came with this idea since that it's getting warm here, oh ya say HYE TO SPRING SEASON. Suprisingly, everyone gave positive respons.

 while preparing and waiting

 the befday girl-yana. others :additional accessories :P

 it is warm, yes it is..

 me, grace and syah

 desperate hunger Fahmi

 Game that we played

 while they're playing, we doing this.. hehe..

 got some more

 our entertainer that day :) very patriotic song aah..

  say bye to picnic

 hye mira the gorgeous!

 foooooooodddddd

all of us :)

thanx guys for this picnic. 

spring.food.games.friends =awesome!!

assalamualaikum. ok suddenly.. tiba2 aku rasa nak update blog. wlupun ada test czech esok dan praktikal histo.. yay!!!!!!!!!!!

take mood...............

usrah malam td,,,,,,, the only thing yg aku ingat dgn jelesnya, "ada org yg masuk syurga, dia boleh tarik sekali ahli keluarganya masuk syurga gak"

haaaaaaaa??? itulah reaksi aku.. aku terkejut. terkedu. betulkah??

ha'ah. memang betul. dalam usrah tue, tatkala kak arina tgh menerangkan sesuatu, aku tiba2 menitiskan air mata. aku teringat kepd sesuatu. 

aku xtau aku patut menceritakan hal ini kepada sesiapa pun sbb aku takut ianya akan membuka aib org lain.

kadang-kadang, kita nak org tue berubah, sbb akan ada satu tahap kita mula risau akan org lain, takut2 org tue masuk neraka, mungkin atas dasar sayang yg telah terlubuk dalam, kita nak masuk syurga bersama2 dgn org tue. cuma kadang-kadang, x semua org diberi peluang lagi. Allah telah.... aku xtau nak explain mcm mana..

tak apelah. bila kita buat kebaikan, kita boleh niatkan sekali pahala yg kita dapat tu kpd org lain. insyaAllah, setiap amal yg aku buat, aku berharap pahalanya utk kita bersama. aku nak SANGAT masuk syurga dgn korg. tolonglah ya ALLAH.. AMPUNI dosa-dosa kami :'(

facebook timeline got story

assalamualaikum and dobre rano. it's 9.30 am here in olomouc! and the sun bright perfectly in this sunday morning. but i'm not going anywhere today, coz i think that i should train myself studying in the room due to renovation on the faculty that really affect my studying as i'm always and love study there, but with that loud noise and closed computer lab, not anymore.

ok back to story. last night while engrossed with playing that one drawing game in fb, when i opened up my FB back, "eh, apsal bertukar timeline nie?"

huh!! ini paksaan. aku xnak timeline! xnak!!! tp aku rasa mcm terpaksa je guna timeline nie, org yg x tukar pun dia tukarkan sendiri. suka hati kau lah. then belek2 timeline nie.. x best!!

so aku pun scroll down lah.. tgk sejarah aku 2-3 tahun lepas. "you opened ur facebook account on 20 dec 2009." oouuuh.. aku sendiri tak ingat. so aku belek2 hidup aku 2010. for each month ok >..<

u know what is my first impression?? ya Allah.. aku kah yg post nie. it's tooooooooo childish and i was laughing on myself unstoppable while reading each and every post and comment there.

antara post2 childish aku

-i hate people who make me sick!!!
-1 malam x online membuatkan jiwaku x tenang
-selamat malam semua. kita jumpa di esok hari k. bye
-doi boring ba
-facebook sometimes buat bengang
-hati ini sepertinya berdebar ya
-hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
-um... umm.. xtau mau taip apa
-continue my boring day
-i'm tired, that's it

HAHAHAHA. terima kasih timeline krn membuatkan aku sedar, betapa budak2nya aku sebelum nie. dulu bila tgk junior2 post merapuh semua, mesti mengeluh dan senyum sinis je, tp start smlm, mmg dush dush lah sbb aku pun mcm dorg dulu. so x bleh nak salahkan dorg sbb mgkn dorg masih muda dan belum matang sepenuhnya. sorry people!

klu lepas nie org stalk timeline aku, mesti malu gila. even aku yg bc sendiri pun malu. k bye!!

tired week

asslamualaikum..

this week i got 3 test. ok officially only 2. ONLY??? hah.. org yg satu batch aku je tau mcm mana penatnya kiteorg. monday tue kiteorg ada test biophysics, then rabu tue supposely ada oral test anat tp memandangkan radka sakit, so takda, then jumaat, which is baru je td test histo. pergghhh.. histo td lepas, alhamdulillah lepas tp cukup2 mkn je lah tp bahaya sebenarnya sbb markah tue dia akan accumulate sampai ke final.. so masa nilah sepatutnya grab markah byk2x..
dan resultnya sekarang >> "myslim mam teplotu" which means i think i have a high temperature right now. seriously rasa nak demam skrg. mgkn penat sgt kot.

ok. look forward. minggu depan selasa ada test biology, jumaat czech. semoga aku still dpt survive.

dia dah dapat hidayah :)

hari nie sy sgt gembira!!!! tau tak kenapa??

masa tgh study dkat labcomp. aku pun buka fb jap tuk release2 tension sbb seriously lama sgt menunggu test dan kelas pukul 4.45 pm. so buka2 chat box dan tgk kakak aku on9.

"salam, apa khabar?"
"sihat jak" jawab kakak aku.. then aku tanya lagi..
"ok2 ka semuanya???" 
"ok jak. aku dah berubah sekarang ko jgn terkejut ya nanti klu balik.."
aku pun ckp "ha?? berubah mcm mana?"
"aku dah 'tutup' aurat"

YA ALLAH. bahagianya aku rasa tym itu. bila mendapat tahu kakak aku sendiri telah mendapat hidayah dr Allah. bukannya kakak aku x tutup aurat, x bertudung sebelum nie, cuma bila dia ckp dia dah berubah, aku dah mula sense something, aku faham perubahan mcm mana yg dia maksudkan tue. dkat fb pun dia dah selalu post2 pasal akhirat, pasal islam..alhamdulillah.. lepas tue aku tanya2 dia, kenapa berubah??? dia ckp dia takutkan akhirat.. hmmmmmmmmm!!!! indahnya jawapan tue.. sedapnya perasaan ini..

seriously pernah terbyg gak mesti awkward gile klu aku berubah sorg2 dalam family. tp bila dia ckp mcm tue, aku jd bersemangat, nak jugak jd mcm kakak aku!!!!! alhamdulilllah.. terima kasih byk2 ya Allah atas kurniaanMu kpd kami. Semoga kami SEMUA dapat masuk syurgaMu Ya Allah.. amin.

show me the way

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh..
minta maaf sebab menghilang..

dek kesibukan test yg melambak dan juga dilema diri sendiri...

currently listening to nasyid song.. mmmm sedap.. memberi ketenangan.
2 minggu nie sayu sgtttttttt... aku xtau kenapa. i feel like i'm losing myself. i talk less, laugh less, social less, and isolate myself. only me and myself. aku xtau kenapa. seriously.. apsal aku mcm nie?? apsal??? is this my turning point?? is this one of the way to be matured??

aku xtau kenapa aku senyap sgt. tp satu yg pasti. "dunia hanyalah senda gurau dan permainan". ayat Allah nie selalu bermain kat fikiran aku. "berkata baiklah atau diam". yg nie pun selalu bermain gak. mgkn sbb aku rasa klu aku ckp banyak, aku lebih byk ckp perkara yg sia2, dan benda tue selalu membuatkan aku leka. oh Allah apa semua nie??

aku mencari jalan penyeselesain kepada semua. should i be like this all the way?? or back to before?? aku dapat rasa sedikit ketenangan itu. tp hanyalah secebis sahaja. but at the same time, aku merasa sunyi. seolah2 dunia nie hanya aku seorg yg hidup. dan pernah tak korg terpikir, ok mestilah pernah kan...agak2nya korg akan masuk syurga or neraka??? mcm mana korg lepas mati?? aku pernah terpikir benda nie sebelum2 nie tp beberapa minggu nie mcm selalu sgt. Penah risau tak mak ayah korg akan masuk mana nanti??

bila manusia sekeliling bergembira, aku selalu tak segembira dorg. bila diorg gelak, aku tak. ya ALLAH.. seriously i'm lost. nie petunjuk baik ka atau tak??? dan sejujurnya aku x gembira sgt dgn perubahan aku nie.

berikan aku petunjuk ya Allah. JAWAPAN. ketenangan hati.. plizzzzz... :(

housemate baru!

di pagi yg indah. kiteorg sarapan mee kari.... :) dan kek buatan farhana...

makan, borak, makan, gelak......

done! basuh pinggan.. sambil basuh tue masih bising2 lg...

tiba2, kiteorg didatangi dgn satu suara lelaki.. oh tidak!!
semua org pecut lari masuk bilik sbb x pki tudung time tue kecuali nisa..

"hi. i'm new here"

oh tidak!!!! housemate lelaki...!!

lepas nie, klu nk masak kena pki tudung lah...??
klu nak mandi, kena bw baju yg siap2 nak dipakai gak ke???
klu nak kluar without tudung, kena intip2 dlu make sure die takde...???

mgkn bg org lain kat sini nie, nie dh jd perkara biasa.. tp seriously, aku x biasa lg dgn budaya nie.. susah kot nak accept.. tp apa boleh buat.. hanya mampu berdoa xdalah moment2 aku x bertudung n then pap!!! dia ada.. nauzubillah.. takpe2x, dia sebulan je sini.. tahan2x...

btw, td aku gi centrum, jalan2x, mkn2x, n cuci gambar.. yay!!! my room got lot's of pictures of love right now.. :)

i wish u were here

do you know how much that i miss u right now???

hidup kat sini bukannya senang.. wlupun kawan byk, tp x sama mcm kamu.. aku selalu berangan kamu semua dtg sini, klu kamu semua tinggal sini kan best... takdalah sunyi..
tp takpa.. 6 tahun tue x sedar.. insyaAllah balik menjadi seorg doktor dan insan yg berguna..

rawatan tension!

anda tension???

stress dgn study????????

layan lah ini.

2 DAYS 1 NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seriously lawak gile dan mampu membuatkan anda tergelak2 besar rasa mcm nak golek2 je..

korg kena tgk nie reality show nie....

lawak sgt!!!!

p.s : jgn nonton ketika roomate anda tidur, krn anda akan sakit mulut menahan gelak.. :)

tym to sleep.. assalamualaikum!

it's almost over :(

summer term x lama lg start.. wlupun skrg nie bukanlah summer.. sgt obvious skrg nie -15 degree celcius.. sejuk yg teramat..

ok. aku habis chem tanggal 13, officially habis semua exam dalam tanggal 24 jan lah.. ape aku buat selama nie eh???
recall.. recall.. um.. umm.. sejujurnya..

hmmm.. mula2 tue xtau nak buat apa.. tidur kot.. sbb penat dan qada segala tidur2 yg xcukup selama nie. tidur tidur tidur..Zzzzzz... sampai terlebih tidur.. hikhik..

then aku layan movie, layan korea ckit.. tp takde pun yg best.. hampeh tul!

ha!!! lepas tue kiteorg jaln2 kat prague.. seriously cantik!!!!!
nak jalan2 kat tepi charles bridge tue dgn someone yg disayangi one day.. hehehe..

lepas tue balik... xtau nak buat ape lg.. bajet nak study lah nie... tp... x boleh... cuti is cuti...! so kwn aku kenalkan aku dgn Heartstring tue.. heishhh mmg addict kot dgn drama tue.. tension btul aku... dlm 3 hari jugak lah kot aku addict gile2 dgn drama tue dan juge Yonghwa yg x seberapa hensem tue.. heishhh.. astaghfirullahazim..

and then, kawan aku ada yg gi jerman dan italy.. so aku bajet2 aku akan study bile dorg takde.. sekali lg tp.... banyak je halangan tau... pegi prague lg sekali, senior jemput makan kat umah, dah terbiase bgn lambat lg.. adei....

BILE NAK STUDY NIE BULAN??????

oh diri ini, cepatlah sedar.. sedar sedar! buka sem nanti ko ada credit test biophysics dan kau tau kan summer term nie byk subject, byk exam.. lgpun ko ada skull test lg nanti.. wake up bulan.. 

holiday is over for you ok.

extremely cold

esok -28 degree celcius min temp.. ape2 pun jd, aku xnak kluar rumah jd frozen and then masuk bilik terketar2.. good night.. assalamualaikum..! - status aku malam semalam sebelum tidur

tp, tiba- tiba something came up so aku kena teman tiqah going somewhere. aku dah siap pkai 

baju 3 lapis dah, pakai jacket tebal, trenchkot, siap dgn gloves dan mafla.. FULLY PROTECTION!

oh yeah!

bila keluar, the first 2 minutes, hmmm sejuk2 standard je nie.. after 5 minutes.. ooohhh ooohhhh sejuknya.. muka sejuk.. tgn sejuk.. "sejuk sgt nie tiqah" kata aku.

then, bila urusan dah siap, kiteorg pi centrum, kluarkan duit, and then aku suh tiqah balik dlu sbb aku ada urusan lain..dipendekkan cerita, dah siap urusan, aku pi tunggu kat namesti hrdinu nk naik trem, dlm keadaan kesejukan dan mata yg agak kabur2x, trem no 7, trem kedua yg akan dtg around 7 minutes.. 

trem kedua sampai, aku terus naik tanpa melihat apa2 pun, sbb aku btul2 dah kesejukan. tiba2 plak trem tue belok ke arah kanan which is Prior. aduh.. salah naik trem lagi.. geramnya...

so aku pun turun on the next 2 stops, sbb stop utk ke arah yg berlainan btul2 kat depan stop tue je.. bila trem yg aku naik stop, masa tue jugaklah trem no 2 berhenti kat sebelah dan mmg rasanya tak sempat klu aku nak kejar nie.. 

tgk jadual trem lg, 12 minit kena tunggu.. oh tidak! sejuk sejuk!!! aku pun menunggu dan menunggu dalam keadaan kesejukan yg sgt extreme. jari kaki mmg dah kebas dah, sejuk tue dh menembusi baju aku, dan muka aku rasa mcm dah menggelupas dan start kebas. oh.. nie lah sejuk paling sejuk pernah aku rasa selama nie seriously.. teramat2lah sejuk.. mcm mana lah homeless2 nie semua survive..

trem sampai, aku trus naik, duduk tunduk, x ckp apa2 pun, statik je.. sbb seriously sejuk sgt.. kaki kebas x hilang lg.. sampai2bilik aku trus mengadu ngan kawan aku.. sejuk wei.. sejuk wei..

kwn aku ckp, memang pun.. -15 org ckp sekarang..

-15 degree???? ouuhhh.. aku baru je kluar dr fridge semula jadi bersuhu -15 degree.. daebak!

layan drama

i'm just finish watched 15 epi of this drama...

HEARTSTRING

hehe.. best2x.. sampai dah tgk 2-3 kali berulang-ulang nie... hikhik..

dah lama gile aku x layan korea, semenjak dtg sini lah.. dan sekrg bila dah cuti, hehehe,,

balas dendam...

korg tgklah cite nie.. best tau.. :)

kantoi..

ini adalah antara cerita2 time kiterorg baru je sampai ke czech, specifically olomouc.

ok senior kiteorg nie memang baik gile, mase kiteorg baru sampai, ade org jemput kat airport, siap bg makanan lg kat dalam bas tue, and then bila sampai tue, register hostel, diorg siap bantu angkat barang lg. masa sampai tue, agak blur sikit, xtau nak pi mana, rasa mcm kabur je semua.. biasalah tue.. tempat baru beyond my imaginary.

n then malam tue kiteorg pi surau sbb senior masak utk kiteorg.. hooooyehhhh!!! hehe.. sampai2 surau tue (antara org terlambat), senior pun hidang makanan, nasi dgn rendang ayam x silap aku.. sambil2 tue tgk2 lah senior semua, comel2 belaka, dan aku terperasan sorg senior nie duk kat tgh tgh agih makanan, "cantiknya akak nie" desis hatiku.

tym2 makan tue, rasa boring lah plak. kiteorg pun gosip2 lah pasal sorg senior nie yg bru kahwin. hehe.. sorg dkat prague, sorg dkat olomouc. yg pempuan tue dkat prague. kiteorg tau cerita nie via facebook je lah.. dah duk menganggur lepas A level, xtau nak buat ape, so dulu2 layan fb je lah.. tgh cite2 pasal senior yg tgh kahwin tue.. tiba2 sorg senior berckp...

mane SUNARTI??

aku pun terkejut "ha???? saye.. kenape?"

akak dr Sabah gak. akak lah kak syifa.

WHAT????? akak kak syifa???? kak syifa???

oh tidak!!!!!!!!!! gelak terguling2 dah time tue..
die tue lah yg kiteorg duk gosipkan td, rupa2nya kak syifa tue kat sebelah kiteorg je. dan die tue lah senior yg aku ckp cantik dkt awal2 post nie. hehehe... mmg kantoi gile time tue... malu sgt-sgt.

kepada kak syifa dan abg anam, minta maaf lah kiteorg asyik gosip. kan dah terkena depan2x.. btw.. semoga korg bahagia dunia dan akhirat. :) cepat2lah dapat anak2.. hehe..

exam got story

assalamualaikum pembuka post baru.. hehe...

dah lama x update blog nie, rasa x wujud ada gak. sebab busy yang tak terkata, study study study exam exam exam.. huh.. winter sem agak memenatkan..
lepas dissection week yg menyeronokkan, kamiorg semua struggle for the post dissection. aku dgn beraninya take the post the week after it, which is on wednesday. bajet dah ready lah nie dan nak lepaskan awal2 so that boleh fokus ngan chem after that.. konon..

FAIL!

sebab ape?? salah tunjuk medial rotation of arm.

tp aku still ok lg. boleh terima kegagalan pertama nie. takpe, senior ckp takpe.. gagal 1st attempt tue biasalah.

2nd attempt is the next day : thursday

FAIL AGAIN!

dush dush dush!! memang terasa sangat kegagalan tue. at first aku x nangis kot, but then bila aku duk sorg2 kat lebri, mengalir air mata... :"( seriously rasa diri sendiri bodoh sgt. rasa mcm x boleh nak adapt je nie, x boleh nak masuk je medik nie.. susahnya Ya Allah..

tp kesedihan tue sekejap je lah.. lepas tue ok balik..

ok so then nak try dalam next week. but at the same time nak ambik latin jugak by monday. nak lepaskan latin nie awal2x. honestly, aku minat sgt latin nie, coz juz hafal2 mcm tue je xde perasaan.. bg aku lahhhhh...

i was trying very hard to answer them and then....

FAIL LAGI!! MAK AAIII!!!

ha yg nie xyah ckp lah.. memang dah nangis sgt2.. apsal aku asyik fail.. apsal nie??? something wrong somewhere. nasib baik lah ada usrah yg memberi semangat.. dan juga kawan2x.. usrah tue lah tempat utk aku sedar, kebegantungan itu pada Allah.

then, nak try post rabu tue, tp Radka x bagi coz dia nak kiteorg betul2 ready, so kena retake on jan.. haiiiiii.. penat je aku studyyyyy.. hampa... tp takpelah... mgkn rezeki on jan kot...

ok fine. tinggalkan semua!!! fokus dkat chem.. ok korg2 semua.. let me tell how scary chem is.

medical chemistry nie, x semua university bg subjek nie tau. yg aku tau skrg hanya university aku dan rusia je.. yg lain aku xtau.. ok nie memang KILLER SUBJEK utk first year. you only have three attempt and if you fail at third, TERMINATE! TERMINATE OK!! impian nak jadi doktor boleh hancur dgn chem nie. senior pun ckp, 'korg lepaskan lah chem nie dulu, lepas chem lepaslah first year korg.' ha mcm tue lah perumpamaannya.. and usually first attempt x lepas tau. study dia pun bukan senang, byk sgt benda kena hafal dan STRUCTURE PUN KENA HAFAL TAU TAK!! paracetamol, benzocaine, lipoic acid, uracil, thymine segala.. approx dlm 30+ something structure kena hafal tau. masa tue makan chem, minum chem, tidur chem.. huh.. sampaikan awal pagi gi fac study, balik 10.47 malam. sbb aku susah nak study kat bilik. aku hampir2 dah nak withdraw exam, nak postpone lg, sbb x ready lg. tp senior suruh go through je manatau ade rezeki.. huh ok!!!

dan bila kuar result........

ALHAMDULILLAH! ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

THANK U YA ALLAH!

seriosly memang x sangka gile boleh lepas. hebatnya kuasa mu Ya Allah. kau berikan aku kegagalan demi kegagalan, rupanya kau nak beri hadiah yg lebih hebat!! lepas first attempt!

bile lepas chem, rase lepas satu bebanan yg cukup berat di bahu nie.. seriously..

then barulah aku proceed ke czech (on the same day the result came out), alhamdulillah lepas gak.

next retake latin, alhamdulillah lepas gak.

finally post dissection.. yg nie agak phobia ada gak sebab dah gagal 2x kot. tp mmg dah all out dah nie.. ntah nie dah kali ke berape dah aku baca buku anat tue..

ALHAMDULILLAH!!! 

baik sungguh mood Radka.. hehe..

officially i'm done with the exam for winter!

bile muhasabah balik, oooo mcm nie rupanya pathway aku utk winter nie. apsal aku sedih sgt bila gagal.. hayyya...

kepada kwn2x lain yg x setel exam lg, aku tau korg tension.. sgt2x.. tp korg, trust me!! keep struggling, nangis takpe, tp biar air mata tue menaikkan semangat balik. mungkin jalan cerita exam korg lg menarik.. hanya Allah tau.. keep praying, and klu rase nak luah kat kwn, boleh je... kiteorg ade je utk korg insyaAllah.. senior pun pesan kan, SUPPORT tue paling penting. korg jgn down sgt sampai affect study. insyaAllah Allah akan tolong org yg berusaha.. :)

so that all the story for my winter exam. teringat status someone kat fb.

"i'm never looked at the past and never at the future, coz i'm living in present. in the past people say i'm genius, but today, i'm struggling very hard for the unknown future"

some sort like that lah. k nak gi prague lepas nie.. salam!

new face!

i'm back!!!
after passsing through all the exam in winter sem, finally it's the end for it.

And the starts for my holiday till summer sem!

i will tell you the whole story in this winter, my trip to vienna and of course how i struggle with life as a students here..