aku ingatkan aku dah ok

bila aku turun ke bandar,
perasaan sakit di dada tue semakin kurang.
x sesakit yg dulu..

aku ingatkan aku dah ok.

bila aku memikirkan semula kesibukan tahun pertama ku di universiti,
aku x byk mengingat mu.
aku busy.

aku ingatkan aku dah lupa.

bila aku pergi ke sekolah balik,
jumpa kawan lama,
aku rasa seronok, excited,
tiada perasaan seperti dulu..

aku ingatkan aku dah sembuh.

tapi, mungkin..
akulah masalahnya.
masa lapang itu menjahamkan.. benar..
aku x byk memikirkan dirimu,
tapi hampir setiap hari kau muncul dalam mimpi aku tanpa aku rela kan..
tapi kdg2x aku rasa bersyukur,
jumpa dalam mimpi pun dah cukup :')

pada mulanya, aku benar2x yakin mengakui i'm getting better.
dan.. aku merasakan sdh bersedia to let it go..
mungkin ini ujian di waktu lapang.
takpalah.. tahun demi tahun, masa akan berlalu,,
i will get better.
i will.
i promise.

exam summer

hari ini. bgn lmbt. x buat apa2x.. ckp dgn mak, aku pening kepala lah sbb x buat papa hari nie.. haha.. then kakak aku menyampuk, byk kerja tue bulan, pi lah kau lap2x meja, almari semua.. kbye....!! aku nak rehat sepuasnya2x....

ok nak cerita apa eh.. cerita exam lah..!

mula2x sekali ambik exam biophysics kan.. sbb dah lepas semua kredit test, alhamdulillah.... so kena ambik oral praktikal je.. around like 28 question to cover lah.. and you know what, i make last minute decision to take the exam 1 week earlier than it should be.. haha.. poyo je.. prepared for like 3 days lah utk praktikal tue.. x susah sgt pun sebenarnya as long as you understatnd the experiment, knows how to conduct, then you'll be fine. but the thing is it's my oral exam so first experiences always give a butterfly in your stomach. alhamdulillah.. dpt soalan yg boleh dijawab.. lepas jugak lah.. alhamdulillah..

then, then,, czech exam.. i'm not really performed that well in translation as it was really hard script, even my teacher admit it, but the speaking part, i'm kind of did well.. well perhaps because that it's just a simple question from her like "do you have a big family?", "are you look forward to go back?". fully in czech language. superb!

the very heavy and tough subject follows, anatomy.. huh.. this subject really fun, that's the only subject that you can tell your family about that you had touch the cadaver, you had cut them, oh yeah.. haha!! but the information there, is really really too much and you had to memorized every single thing of them. even the very last word of the last paragraph on a page you had to consider them much. when it's the exam, i was very nervous as i know i'm not ready, it's not possible to remember everything there, impossible.!! 10 minutes before entering the anatomy department, it feels like i didn''t study any for the last two weeks. i was blur and nervous.
but alhamdulillah i got quite an easy question and i passed with kutal. anatomy... huh!

the very last exam, biology. i spent only like 4 days for this, plus that my eager to go back increase tremendeously.. ohhh it's a very stressful moment. i love bio, but the thing is, i think that 4 days is so not enough for you to understand them much. bio need an understanding, but as a whole, as it links to each other, each chapter... but then once again, i got question that you can breath relieve when you read them.. alhamdulillah.. Allah ease my way this time. and qilah also passed, even though she got a quite hard question.

exam is over. first year officially DONE !!

summer holiday..

alhamdulillah....!!!

beta dah selamat sampai dekat TAWAU!!! wuhuuuu!
eh jap,, sejak bila plak guna beta nie?? alah.. aku kan anak raja.. hahaha.. ini serius wei..

ok. 12 hours dlm flight, transit kat dubai, dubai seriously panas wei...unexpected sgt panas dia.. tp view dubai bila malam sgtlah cantik2x, tp bila siang, speechless,, betulkah nie yg aku tgk semalam...??? k dah dah cerita dubai.. oh tak cerita plak terlambat bgn kat hotel dubai tue.. naseb baek... huh...

sampai malaysia, huh... excited sgt2x.... weh weh dorg ckp malaysia weh... poyo je aku dkat klia tue excited dgr org cakap malaysia.. haha.. best tau tak pengalaman balik malaysia for the first time.. excitednya teramat2 lah sgt... perumpamaan i'm willing to do anything for these feeling.. awesome!!!!

ok x cerita pun pasal exam.. kan kan... last post pun pasal frust dgn dissection week.. ok lah nanti post lain beta cerita pasal exam ok..!

skrg beta dah kat rumah..!! seminggu stay kat kl, jalan hampir setiap hari tau,, shopping!! huhu... malaysia seriously heaven dgn food tau tak..! murah plak tue...!!! huh.. selera meningkat2 sejak balik sini.. hehe..

alhamdulillah baru sak tadi selesai baca doa selamat... doa selamat puasa, selamat abg tam dah keja, selamat aku dah balik.. alhamdulillah rezeki Allah melimpah sgt2x...

perasaan bila balik rumah, huh.... unexplainable..! sgt2x awesome... seronok!!!! yg paling2x indah tau tak ??? Allah berikan kesempatan utk berjumpa dgn 2 org yg paling aku syg.. MAK AYAH...

ohhh 2 months, please.... please pass slowly... as you can.. :(